Ekta meye ar ami highschool onek close chilam.A levels deyar shomoy or result kharap howay o school chere dey, jawar ager din amake ei kobita ta lekhe pathay:
I thought she liked me so I asked her to see the 2017 super moon with me. She said no, saying she is religious and she doesn't want a relationship outside of marriage. She also backed it up saying things like baba-ma emneo jete dibe na.
I put the poem somewhere in my drawer and forgot about it for a long time. I tried to forget her and we barely spoke after that. We both went to a mutual friends birthday party and on the way back home we had to get a rickshaw with a third friend. She sat on the hood on top of me. It started raining, like pouring and she said she loves how my hair gets wet. I thought there is a spark so I became emotionally invested again. We met 2 more times once at her house for her birthday and my 21st birthday. Then in February 2020 I found out through my brother's friend who is her neighbor that she is getting married to a second cousin who is like 7 years her senior(she was 21). I was heart broken and I got absolutely schwasted to cope (I used to brew alcohol at home at this time). I found the poem, tore it up and threw it in the dustbin. Then regretted it so I went through the trash and taped it back together. I ended up organizing het Holud. Went to her wedding too. I wanted to hate her husband but I couldn't, he's actually a very charismatic tech bro type of person. Loves coding even though he was from a biotech background. I eventually told him I had feelings for her and he was chill about it and wanted me to talk to her and find closure. This was the night before their wedding and I didn't wanna put more load on her since she'd be busy preparing... So I didn't tell her till August 5, 2024. She said she would go out that day to join the protest. I was shot and sedated from 1/2
